Lila Holler Unveils Intimate New Single “The Way I Am Now”

 Rising indie-pop artist and songwriter Lila Holler returns with her most vulnerable release to date, “The Way I Am Now,” arriving October 17.

Written during a period of personal struggle, the track finds Lila balancing themes of self-care, insecurity, and intimacy within a serious relationship. “I wrote this song while in the midst of dealing with some mental health issues last year,” Lila shares. “Being in a serious relationship, I had to learn how to balance taking care of myself and showing up with my 50%. It’s a song laced with insecurities, written in the hopes that people who deal with the same struggles feel less alone.”

Haunting yet tender, “The Way I Am Now” feels like a spiral of thoughts unraveling in real time. Its stillness carries weight—an atmosphere meant to be absorbed in solitude, eyes closed, on top of a bed. Lila’s emotive delivery grounds the track in raw honesty, creating a space for listeners to sink into their own quiet reflections.

The songwriting process was equally cathartic and challenging. Composed alone in her bedroom, the song poured out in near-chronological order as she sat with a guitar in alternate tuning. The result is both delicate and powerful, anchored by the striking chorus: “Tell me you’d take me without knowing I’ll ever change from the way I am now.” For Lila, this lyric encapsulates the heart of the song—the plea for unconditional acceptance in love. As with all her work, the single highlights Lila’s commitment to creating music that is both deeply personal and universally resonant.

“The Way I Am Now” will be available on all streaming platforms October 17.

Meet Lila Holler:

Lila Holler, an indie-pop musician and songwriter, finds inspiration in her nomadic upbringing across the United States. Her musical journey began at 14 when a family friend gifted her an old guitar. This sparked a self-taught exploration into playing and songwriting.

Lila sharpened her songwriting skills at the Interlochen Arts Academy in Michigan, graduating in 2023 and receiving the Fine Arts Award.

Influenced by a diverse array of artists such as The Marias, Ani Difranco, Phoebe Bridges, Clairo, and FKA Twigs, Lila divides her time between studying songwriting and performance at LIPA in Liverpool, England, and her hometown of Seattle, WA. Lila's deep appreciation for live performances is evident in her dedication to establishing a meaningful connection with her audience. She places a high priority on delivering an exceptional show, recognizing the unique value of the live music experience.

Noteworthy achievements include being a two-time ('23, '24) winner of the National YoungArts Competition in the category of Voice: Singer-Songwriter, earning semi-finalist status in the International Songwriting Competition, as well as in the American Songwriter Contest for her songs Be a Ghost '23 and Worth It Soon '23, being chosen to attend The Grammy Foundation's Grammy Camp, New York University's Songwriting Workshop and releasing her 4-track EP, "Worth It Soon," in 2023. More recently, Lila’s music video for ‘Headache’ was recognized by the International Songwriting Competition this year. 

Lila's commitment to transparency is evident as she strives to establish a personal connection with her audience through heartfelt and relatable lyrics. Additionally, she has been credited for her collaboration on various projects, including BENJI & Their Orchestra's EPs "hypnagogia" ('23) and "music for an elevator" ('23). She has also received credits on Marylin Hucek's EP titled "Love and Loss" ('23).